Insecurity. Ego. Two concepts that go hand in hand, yet appear to be on opposite ends of self-perception. "I know I'm perfect, I don't have any insecurities". The ego takes over to protect the insecurities. If the ego is inflated enough, it builds the walls that block out potential viewers. No one wants their insecurities to be visible to others, and that's where the ego acts as a security guard. Simultaneously, the insecurities are usually always visible, whether that's an insecurity of the physical, mental, spiritual, or emotional sense of self. The ego is in place to maintain a sense of invisibility within, when in reality, the bigger/more intense self disrespect or shame, the more obvious the mask becomes.
Some people are better at hiding their mask than others, some people are better at noticing the mask than others. No matter what ability to visibility you have, it all manifests outward. If your internal monologue is either positive or negative, it will manifest itself outward. Simply because your body cannot hold it in. It's often a subconscious act, in fact - it typically is. If we as humans knew how to control the perception of other's on the outside, we would intern, know how to control it on the inside for ourselves. In my opinion, resolving the internal negatives is the key to finding that personalized inner peace, inherently effecting the way you love the world.
Being the best version of yourself to the world, will always require primarily being the best version of yourself to you; walking your own path in love. Any negative self-talk, or anger you hold to yourself, will make it's way out, just the same as any positive affirmations your inner monologue repeats. While there are benefits to the ego, it is ultimately the fatal flaw that keeps us at peace for ourselves. Providing yourself forgiveness and grace in times of criticism is an essential part of finding that love that rests inside of you. Coming to the realization that no matter the circumstance, it is all going to be okay. It's okay to feel embarrassed. It's okay to feel like you're not the strongest, smartest, or most attractive person in the room. Take those emotions, let them pass through you (they will always leave), but when they're gone, take down the knowledge of why you feel those types of things. Use that knowledge of who or what influence you've absorbed that has lead you to these feelings, and move forward figuring out which parts perpetuate your peace, or hinder it.
Insecurities are usually based in fear. The fear of maybe being betrayed, not being enough for someone personally or professionally, fear of disappointment or sadness, or even just the fear of being fully seen or vulnerable. That fear manifests itself through the ego, into defensiveness, anger, or anxiety; tampering with the ability to walk with peace in your heart. It creates the narrative that causes someone to act out of fear, over think, over work, or over compensate. It bleeds into our thought processes, being projected into the outer world. That feeling of having these fears, no matter how well hidden, looms over the subconscious, making a nest into the default narrative we put in place for ourselves.
What does it mean to "walk in love"? Personally, it means to thoroughly embody the art of walking through this life with love at the forefront of the mind; leading every step, guiding one's future. To me, it means seeing the beauty in everything and finding more opportunities to fall in love and to smile more. Actively choosing to let the love the world has to offer guide my thoughts & self talk, vs my fears and insecurities. In my personal perspective, my desire to walk in love is stemmed from wanting to perpetuate that authentic love to everyone around me and into everything I do. I find it to be an impossible task if I haven't given myself that same grace. I love my life when I choose to walk in love, and I find myself constantly fighting a battle internally when I don't. It's taken a long, hard road to find the security and confidence to choose this mindset for myself, and I still work towards it every day. Walking in love and what that means to me (killing the ego), is what keeps my mind as stress free as possible. Choosing to always look at the positives and look for more opportunities for growth instead of allowing the ego and negatives of life plague my mind.
As mundane as some things appear to be, there is always beauty & magic -- the viewer just has to want to find it.
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